little sister

I did it. I went shopping for baby girl, from now on she will be abbreviated BG not because those are her initials, wait for it, you will get there. I was pretty excited and looking forward to choosing the first outfit I would purchase. I kind of wanted to get her something to come home in. I already am thinking differently because I have no clue what the boys came home in. Pretty sure we just threw them into a sleeper or onesie and headed out. Spence has decided to start calling our savings "daughter fund".
Everyone had told me how fun it was to shop for girls, so as I stood in Carter's crying I was a bit taken by surprise. All week everyone had been asking how I felt about a girl and how excited I was. I am truly excited about this baby girl, but as I shopped I realized that I hadn't had this opportunity with our other daughter. It hit me in the store that the reason I have felt conflicted is because I didn't want to dishonor Rae. (I know this is a bit heavy, but I keep this blog to document my family's life. Not because of my thousands of fans, JK) I have since realized since crying in Carter's, that it is ok to continue to grieve and miss Rae, but at the same time be excited about BG.
So, I am sitting with a few pink items and anticipating more. I am thinking about how to add to our current nursery to make it girly with out losing my adorable fabric that I love (Jen, the designer who made our nursery and Zeke's big boy stuff, is alraedy brainstorming). I am excited to go to Target and get a frilly tutu. I am looking forward to bows and leg warmers. I just wanted to explain why I may not be screaming from the rooftops that we are having a gril is because we feel like we already have one. We just have yet to meet her. Another quick thing, this whole grieving process takes me by surprise still. I totally did not expect this and it made me realize how dependent I really am on Jesus for everything. But that's a whole 'nother post that I got rolling around in my head and heart for another day.
Here's what you want to see:

BG's first outfit: onesie, pink striped pants and hat, and those sweet little ballet slipper socks

Baby Girl

On Monday we announced that Shelton baby #4 is a girl! Spence and I are still working out our thoughts. I think we are truly a bit shocked by this. On the way home from the apointment, I asked Spencer what he was thinking. He responded with "first date, first kiss, first boyfriend, prom, wedding... and I just have this feeling of hating someone". My response was "You realize this kid you are hating probably hasn't even been born yet, right?"
So there we are. Currently hating some boy, and getting prepared to drown in some pink. If you follow me on pintrest, you will notice an increase in all things pink, sparkly, and fluffy. I am working through how to keep our nursery but make it a bit girly. Any suggestions are welcome here.
Now onto, our sweet girls pictures:

this is the classic toilet seat pic, that little white dot (if you zoom in it is a cross) shows that if this is a baby boy, he is missing some important parts.

I love this pic. You can see her spine so clearly.

This is one of those creepy face pictures. You can see her eye sockets, nose, and mouth

Zeke and Ben are proud to announce...

they are excited to be having a baby sister.

We took the boys with us to the doctor for a beautiful family moment... enter our crazy kids. Ben flipped as soon as I sat on the table and demanded I get up. Zeke began asking to go home as soon as Dr. Brannon squirted that jelly on my belly. Spence held both boys crying while we found out the big news.
We decided to share our news in a fun way with our parents.

this is what our ride to tell looked like
yes, those are the boys tucked in back there

Ben loved playing with the balloons

this is his "I'm having a sister face"

This is Zeke's "you better not mess with my sister face"

"and if you do, this is what we will do to you!"

Big Happenings

Spencer, Zeke, Ben, and I are excited to announce that we are pregnant again! We are due February 26, but Dr. B has said he will induce me at 38 weeks so I don't end up having a home birth (due to Ben's crazy early, quick arrival). I am currently 12 weeks. We went to the doctor again this morning and I heard that sweet heartbeat. We have been a bit more nervous this go round and I have actually gone to the doctor for a few extra ultrasounds. I have felt pretty rotten as well. So, if you have seen me in the past few weeks and I have looked pretty gross this explains that. I have turned a corner I believe on my nausea this week so I am hoping that means our regular lives can resume :)
You can pray for continued health of this baby, for peace for Spence and I through out this pregnancy, for Zeke and Ben's transition to both being big brothers (yes please be praying already especially for Benjamin).